I realize I have not posted in a long time, to be honest I just haven't had inspiration to write. In a moment of time as I walk the streets or pick up a book, I will have a moment of thinking "I should write about this." Although each and every time that thought will disappear the second I am able to pull out my laptop. It is kinda as if I missed my chance.
I think about that a lot in life, that what if things are limited to a set time period. Mainly for me it's with relationships with people. Everything in my head has an expiration date. It also happens randomly with total strangers, that if I don't go and help them or start a conversation, I would have ever missed my chance. I realize this is not a good way to look at life, trust me I get that, it is something I struggle with.
I think a lot about psychology and a lot of things that a kid my age shouldn't I guess you could say. My sister calls me wise beyond my years which I smile at each time she says that, although there are times where she says that I think I know everything. I don't know when I ever expressed that feeling towards her but I have said it before, I don't know a lot. I see a lot of things I don't know, shouldn't know, or have never even come close to experiencing in my life. How could anyone in this world know everything or even think they know everything. There is so much knowledge to learn.
I guess I am just so fascinated by psychology and how the brain works, how people think and what past moment sin their lives cause them to act and feel a certain way. I like finding a challenge for myself. As I believe everyone does. If there is no uphill climb, whats the point? I will write more about this in a later time, I had a great conversation with a girl in Canada.
I have no clue where I am going with this... I could write about how great Canada was and how we are back in Seattle. But I just couldn't do that. That maybe I missed my opportunity to share those moments in my life. Maybe it's too late.
I am kinda kidding about that also not at all, that if I have time and wifi I will try to start writing about all that I saw and did while in Canada, all the people I have met or all the horrible drivers we witnessed. There are honestly hundreds of words I can write about it.
That is a challenge for me, that if I don't put a thought into words or onto paper it will sit in my head. I lived my whole life not writing for myself until about junior year. I let the millions of thoughts running through my head sit and collect dust. Some thoughts were simple, everyday moments that could come and go while others caused me so much stress and were constantly in the back of my head weighing on me. I take that seriously now, that everyone has a reservoir, we keep things hidden or push them as far down as possible until it's too late. With time and no release everything will come overflowing out. I am trying to get to a place where I don't overflow, that I have to write to clear my head to clear my reservoir.
I am not sure how I got onto that topic, maybe because I was talking to a friend about writing and how helpful it can be. Anyway I hope I did not miss my chance to talk about all the adventures I have had in Canada!!
Hope all is well, I apologize for not posting in a while. I know all of you are truly invested in this and are most likely checking it everyday... Wouldn't expect anything less:)
Have a great day!
Greta Ann Vanderblue.