I bet that is a question someone has never asked you before. If they have you might need to see someone about that?
While Kember and I were on a hike in Oregon a few days ago I asked her if she had ever though she was a psychopath. She quickly turned very confused and simply laughed saying no.
As I write this, I feel like it is thin ice I am walking on. To clarify I have never questioned myself or anyone for having this mental illness. The google definition is "a person suffering from chronic mental disorder with abnormal or violent social behavior." My look on it is someone who cannot feel emotions especially no empathy. I for one think I feel too many emotions. I have sympathy pains for god sakes. So no I am not a psychopath. But get this, 1 out of 25 people are considered a psychopath. Now I don't believe that they are full blown physical agressor but they will have psychopathic tendencies.
So Kemeber and I had a whole conversation on psychopaths as we hiked down the mountain. I don't really remember what sparked this thought in my head while hiking but I started to read an article about it while we were in Seattle although I cannot find it to finish it. It is something that just interested me. I wonder if people with mental illnesses like this understand what they are doing. That they cannot feel an emotion but they take from people around them and experiences to learn what an emotion looks like. They are very good manipulators. Where this mental illness begins to be a problem is those people who discover what they are doing and their capabilities to control people. That they can put on a mask for each emotion they learned and make someone feel pity. That they are never in the wrong initially.
It is very hard to explain my thoughts on this because it may all just sound crazy. What I tried to tell Kember was if the "normal" human mind on emotions worked was: 50% was what emotions someone felt, the way they were born. Then 50% was learned from people around them, growing up seeing how mom and dad or peers show their emotions. Then from those statistics there are endless possibilities of how people feel and act. So a psychopath has 0% emotions felt, only 100% learned. To me I feel for that, I can only imagine how trapped that my feel for someone. Growing up living a life not understanding why they do not feel something only learning from others on how to look when you "feel" an emotion.
I am so fascinated with psychology and how different brains works. That not everyone with a mental illness like this is a dangerous person. To me I think they are someone who is trapped and confused.
These are my theories and not factual. I am not writing as if I know anything about this. One article under your belt does not allow you to talk as if you know everything in the world about that topic. This is just something I spent time reading about and my thoughts on it. To me it was very interesting to learn about but there is so much information on this that I do not know.
Sorry to maybe ruin your day by telling you 1 in 25 people are a psychopath. Don't go around analyzing everyone you know and the people around you. Go back to drinking your coffee and reading the morning newspaper, not that anyone really does that. It is only in movies right?
Greta Ann Vanderblue.